alot of things in life, you have to grin and bear it.

like how the closest ppl in ur life make fun of you and you have to grin and bear it. all the bloody way. frustrating sometimes.

but i realised that what sean said that day was true. its like, when he smses and i dun reply, he wont ask me why. bcos he would know that there would definitely be a valid reason and that it wouldn't matter to him bcos our friendship is stronger than that. we complete each others sentences and i know what he's thinking. anyway, yes, BACK-UP PLAN! heh inside joke.

my voice is dying now. in all honesty. went to sing K with Fee and Louis until we died. like seriously. stoned in e bloody room. 4 hours straight omggggg. CRYYY MEEE A RIVERRRRRR. we got a legendary VIDEO to prove our madness! its hilarious man.


you know sometimes, i wish you cared a little bit more for me. like, be bothered with what i do. yea i understand the whole give-you-freedom thing, and it works both ways, but i cant help but feel this way today becos i feel like crap. totally crappy feeling. and im tired, and i think im beginning to sprout nonsense. and i cant help but wish you could encourage me sometimes, or be proud of me, bcos your opinion matters. alot.

ok this is gettin gibberish.

i jus woke up frm a nap and i'm waitin for Grey's Anatomy! and, i feel like squashin tml but yet i feel lazy. AIYAAAAA. i feel damn tireddd. big girls dont cry.


you, YOU make my world stop.


Meredith: [voiceover] At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say because there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves.

sigh, i dont know what to say or do now. i dont have a right to make a fuss, yet i feel like crap, or rather i feel like Meredith Grey. emo and waify. but im definitely not waify. ok rubbish.